SFC, my new found love. =D

Hey gUys! I'm finally back! After such a long wait hur? probably dun even bother coming to visit cause its rotting and giving off a stentch! hahaha, but wadeva it is, who cares?

I just had a random thot:
While, I'm lazy blogging and keeping track of the days that zoomed pass me,
God is up there writing and jotting every single detail of my life.
And when the day of judgement come,
Probably, Files and files of my life will be up there,
waiting for me to look through,
and Regret..

ahahhhaa...Well, that's just some random thots, But true isnt it?!
hahahaha, anywae, I really love SFC (saints for christ) ! A place where more of God's love can be felt in the sch...And my teacher in charge are really nice peeps.. Stil rememember that on the first day, I was talking to Mrs Wong on the topic of chrisitanity. Quite an experience and nice feeling toking to her..hahahaa..She's a nice lady. =))

Had SFC orientation ytd, and came to know a few more pp. hehhee, at least now I dun feel as deserted and outcast cause most of them know each other as they were from the 1st intake.
Yea, Life's still cruising and I'm still in a kinda laid back position. It's high time to wake up and start my engine!! arGhH!

Sighhh, I wanna go for the Reach Cambridge trip really much!!! But iTs just too ex! The course alone excluding lunch and air flight is already $3000 plus..(double urgh!) probably, I will just go for the Geog field trip at the end of the year! =))

Oh yes! Btw, I love the auntenticity book ( cell group material), It relates to our daily life and how we should go about making both ourself and God happier and how we can get out from the mortal trap, BY BEING AUTHENTIC.

Yea, and my frenship with someone failed us becasue I wasnt aunthentic enuff.
As in, I din dare speak my hearts out in any case I will hurt him/her.
We always had "unsettled buisness" and bury it in our hearts,
which results in more and more misunderstandings.
Ultimaetly, it was a frenship on the surface.
SiGhhHhhHhh...I'm sorry!

But it's never too late to start authentic frenships with one another! =))

Palm Sunday

my! Sorry guys, my com crashed...
so, I couldn't Blog..
and these few daes, due to something, that I fractured my legs..
So, have been locked in the hospital for the past few daes...
It was dead horrible experience.
I had to live on wheel chair everyday,
and I had trouble going to the toilet...=S

Well, hahaa..if you believe wadeva I said above that is. . . (April FooL!!) haha!
kay, I noe it's slightly lame..ahahawell..

This week has been quite fun, and I am starting to enjoy my class.
It's not that bad afterall..=))
Life concert on friday was cool! and I saw so many of my old primary sch mates!
hahaa..we're back in the same sch again..lol =D
Such coincidence.
Fate's really something not under your control ya? ahahhaa

Homeworks are piling up!! hahahaa, and its building a leaning tower..
I'm so refreshed and renewed today after attending church...
Having undignified worship really help a lot! Not caring abt the pp beside and behind you,
but just focusing on Him...e feeling is nice! Rock On!

Hehehe..so, we are entering the week of easter and hopefully, the pp out there who aren't saved yet will come to know Christ! =))


Btw, Happy Birthday Ms tan!

Life's fulfilling!

For once, the holidaes hasn't really been unfruitful! =))
I went for Ignite Conference on mon night.
It's a chrisitan conference and I should say, It's quite an experience.
Unfortunately, the pastor toked damn fast and at ttimes, it's either he's too soft, or he is all so squeaky that I can't really hear him clearly.
But! The worship was wow!! really WOW!

Sang for prayer meeting on wednesday, and I cried so hard while we were taking turns to pray. I was so grateful to e Lord for wadeva he had did for us, and yea..Overflow with gratitude...
His grace he give to you freely!

Yea, then had "intensive" practice for the upcoming Kid's alive surprise party. And I wil be on the guitar! hehehe..So excited! But the tips of my fingers are seriously damn painful due to the strings. arGh! Yea, so today, during practice, we went to rent Genesis to watch as we wanted to incorporate the video into the party..and seriously, It's disappointing.

So ended up, I suggested that we share the bridge diagram, and lengthen the story. And it shall be acted out too. yea, so now...I'm in charge of writing the script..=((
haha..that means that I have to read up on the bible, to make sure that my script isnt unblibical..hahhaa...of course, will let the experienced ones look through it to double check...
Seriously, it's gonna be challenging, cause e skit has to reach out to the kids...yea. I pray everything goes smoothly and yea! my worship will bring the kidz to live too! hahaa...

So yea, just came back from youth service..It's way cool man! hope the rest of our youth service will be like this too! ahhaa...It was an extended worship led by aunty soon lee..
Finally, we are able to ignore the pp beside us and just worship in wadeva positions we want..be it Kneel or jump... and I think, Aunty soon lee did a good job in helping us feel free to worship Him anywae we want..To just focus on Him...undignified worship as termed...yea..
and after that, aunty sally and aunty soon lee prayed for us..That was when when God spoke through aunty sally to me, that God loved me so much and I am a treasure in his eyes...He mentioned that he will use me mightily and He kept reminding me to refer to the bible..ahhaa..(I haven been doing quiet times recently)..so it's quite a reminder!...
I really Love god and I really want to love Him more! Seriously, he deserve much more than this...

And I prayed so hard that someone will forgive me, and yes, My prayer.
Forgive me?

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

A piece of apology

Though I really hate to say;
Life is in an awful mess these days.
But God, I hope you can guide me through;
and lead me to a place;
with a glimpse of hope.

People are bound to sin;
bound to hurt someone;
bound to misplace the trust of one;
but ultimately,
it is unintentional.

but.

with a big BUT,
I sincerely praaay
to be forgiven,
and that you can accept me
for who i am once again.

Simmer down will you;
and hear me out.

I promised for a change;
and I promise.
Trust me for this once,
For I will honour my words;
& not disappoint you once again.

That's all I ask of you.
forgive me. will you?

I've put down the past, the hurts, the pains. And I long to noe you all over again, with the right attitude, character and mindset.
And, may all glory be to God.

Incredible week!

Well, I was thinking I had better do some updating..ahaha...While scanning other blogs, it dawned on me that you would kinda appreciate if they do some updating to their blogs, and a post after weeks/months of break seems kinda surprising, and precious...
Well, of course that depends on who e writer is..hahaaa!

Many horrible yet interesting things happened this week. I had a detention so did my phone..haahaa...My detention was all thanks to ms JOHNSON for catching me for skipping history lecture which I INTEND TO DROP AFTER JAE! can't they just let me off? ahahaa...and I msged Angela during history...and I think she read it, hence her phone was confiscated...hahaa
She cried and that sent my heart bouncing up and down crazily...So I decided to xchange my phone for hers. Lived without a phone for almost a week! Cool urh? Impossible made possible..ahahhaa..Detention was cool! Cause it's the dae of release for Alevels result..Hence, I duno whats with michael Tan, he let us off very very early! hahaa! we were so excited and grateful!
P.S. CJC did well this year compared to the last. And there was 100% passes for both history and lit..I think its something to be pruod off CJcians! Congrats! =))

Yea, So I have come to a firm conclusion I shall skip sch for the next two daes..ahhaa..everything must have the 1st..So, I would presume its a good time to try out the fun of skipping sch...ahaha..afterall, the subjects being taught on both mon and tues are managable by self-studying...doesnt need much guidiance though...=))
Double yayy!

And, I shall spend the whole time I have, being glued to my new bought Shopaholic series..heehhee and probably, practice bit of my guitar for the upcoming surprise party for kidzalive! well, finally doing sth for church eh? lol..
Probably getting a new phone tmr too!

March Holidays isnt anywhere nearing, yet there are so many thngs packed during that week. There is a Memphyss event on thurs, and on the very week of sun, there is a BIG walk organized by Jas's Sis, first prize of amazing race is 4000 bucks...hahaa..probably we may get together and walk the walk thats indeed BIG!..haahaa

Ytd's CNY and evans with huei, pauline and josc was simply awesome! CNY was seriously succesfull! It is so much better then last year! really! Simple and impactful! the food were delicious too! right bef that, I helped out in their reach out for kids..ahahaa..and my and huei were slow. We paused for a very long while outside each and every unit that we see hope...but, after so many units, only 2 responded...but we still felt encouraged..at least there wasnt none yea huei? ahahaa....afterwhich, we went around northpoint attacking kids...haha! Some were really approachable, and some shy ones hid behind their enthusiastic parents who were keen of the party...ahaha...

yea, So just came back from the last reunion of CNY of this year...the food was thumbs DOWN!
hahaaha...yep, So that's abt it and bye bye!

Do we really love god?

If what we call love doesn’t take us beyond ourselves, it is not really love. If we have the idea that love is characterized as cautious, wise, sensible, shrewd, and never taken to extremes, we have missed the true meaning. This may describe affection and it may bring us a warm feeling, but it is not a true and accurate description of love.

Have you ever been driven to do something for God not because you felt that it was useful or your duty to do so, or that there was anything in it for you, but simply because you love Him? Have you ever realized that you can give things to God that are of value to Him? Or are you just sitting around daydreaming about the greatness of His redemption, while neglecting all the things you could be doing for Him? I’m not referring to works which could be regarded as divine and miraculous, but ordinary, simple human things— things which would be evidence to God that you are totally surrendered to Him. Have you ever created what Mary of Bethany created in the heart of the Lord Jesus? "She has done a good work for Me."

There are times when it seems as if God watches to see if we will give Him even small gifts of surrender, just to show how genuine our love is for Him. To be surrendered to God is of more value than our personal holiness. Concern over our personal holiness causes us to focus our eyes on ourselves, and we become overly concerned about the way we walk and talk and look, out of fear of offending God. ". . . but perfect love casts out fear . . ." once we are surrendered to God ( 1 John 4:18 ). We should quit asking ourselves, "Am I of any use?" and accept the truth that we really are not of much use to Him. The issue is never of being of use, but of being of value to God Himself. Once we are totally surrendered to God, He will work through us all the time.